psychogenetics

do you think we really can change those things so deeply embedded in us? are they part of our genetic makeup, or just such deeply defined grooves imbedded in our memories from what we've witnessed? i tend to think it's the latter. why do we care so much about people who we know aren't people to be emulated, or looked up to? why do we still seek their approval, and let their opinions effect us?

i want to be different. i want to take risks. i want to be uncomfortable. i don't want what they have. i want to be happy. i want to be alive. i want to go places, do things. so why am i still following their path? actually, i think i've veered off, but am still headed in the same general direction. i need a plan.