lately

I don't know why, but I'm feeling so out of sorts lately. The weather is so gorgeous and it's such a favorite time of the year. Dressing up, and picking the perfect gifts, festivals and fairs, and leaves falling, everything changing, changing, being reborn, becoming new. Everything building up to the new year, new hopes and dreams and goals taking shape, but I don't feel new. I feel older and just like staying in bed all day and night and pouting and not even trying to think about how to enjoy the gorgeous weather.