07 May 2005

survival

friendship is unnecessary,
like philosophy, like art
It has no survival value;
rather it is one of those things
that give value to survival


i think i heard on the radio yesterday that friendship is more important than love. but i don't think i've ever been able to separate them. even when i was really young i've always been sort of a one person girl. my best friend when i was 11 or 12, i truly loved her, sometimes i think maybe i was in love with her. i might have been. i get really attached to people quickly, i hold them close and it's hard to let go. i still keep in touch with most of my ex-boyfriends. people say that's weird, but they were such a big part of my life, had so much impact on who i am, how can you not want to keep that in your life? when i am in love, that person becomes my best friend. or maybe the other way around, i'm not sure.

friendship/love is not unnecessary. survival is not enough.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I almost envy you; your ability to love and befriend people so easily. You also keep them close by you. Like water in a pool. If something hits the surface you ripple apart, but always bounce off the side and come back to the middle where you started, the surface even again.
Maybe it's just that I can't trust; that I don't believe anything will ever come back once I let it go.
You are one very lucky person. :)